17OCT2021Z1500:0003
SUBJ: IMPOSTER SYNDROME

Pulled me ol' writin' hands outta the shed today. Covered in dust, they is.
Truthfully I've put pretty much every writing project I've ever started on the backburner the past few years.
The exhaustion from my job coupled with the anxiety of moving was a big factor, but the biggest is still imposter syndrome.
Everyone I show my writings to are [mostly] rather smart people who give rather smart criticisms, where approriate.
I take those criticisms to heart and, after each revision, they tell me that I should publish, that what I write is amazing,
and other such niceties to the point I get so paranoid that they're just humoring me that I do the exact opposite
and never let my stories see the light of day.

For now, they'll stay that way. But I've decided to start a story with the sole purpose of at least publishing it.
The negative feelings are already there, but I've got this.

MEMBER REMARKS (5)

0003:1[TheRealObama]::don't worry my guy u got this
0003:2[Ornamanet]::Your stories are trash. There now you gotta prove me wrong lol
0003:3[Ornamanet]::0003:2 > joke btw
0003:4[Cato]::0003:3 > lol thanks man
0003:5[$41N7]::amogus

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10OCT2021Z1125:0002
SUBJ: TOO MUCH CHANGE

Moving to a new city, changing careers, getting a new house...
Even tryna sign up for college again.
I am fuckin exhausted.

Purchased Trails in the Sky SC on PSP last minute,
before they fully nuke the store.

MEMBER REMARKS (5)

0002:1[Ornamanet]::PSP store is already shut down tho
0002:2[Cato]::0002:1 > You can access it through your Vita or PS3 still.
0002:3[Ornamanet]::0002:2 > Oh neat thanks
0002:4[$41N7]::never herd of this game = bad game
0002:5[Love Under Will]::0002:3 > issgudgame

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01OCT2021Z2350:0001
SUBJ: CONSUME MY LAMENTATIONS

Hi I'm Cato and this is my blog. I also go by Kryptonaut.
I'm twenty-six years old. I've lived in many places.
I've seen much of the world, especially around southeast Asia.
The nicest place I lived was Japan for five years.

Soon, I'll be moving again. I'm thinking Salt Lake City.
Once I settle I want to start learning Assembly.

MEMBER REMARKS (5)

0001:1[Love Under Will]::oh neat a blog
0001:2[Ornamanet]::0001 > Japan
0001:3[Ornamanet]::Fuckin weeb
0001:4[$41N7]::inb4 no updates forever
0001:5[Cato]::0001:3 > rude
0001:6[Cato]::but fair

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|::| NeoCities |::|

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If you've stumbled upon my site just perusing the tubes, then welcome! This site is [mostly] hosted on NeoCities!
It's like the GeoCities of yesteryear, but honestly slightly better and has slowly built up its own identity.

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There are many, many little Discord and IRC (et cetera) groups dedicated to NeoCities, however most of the community is segregated into two main Discord servers:

Penny's Club

* Noob Friendly!
* Zoomer Memes
* Daniel
* Bigger Userbase

Pippin's Club

* Changes Name
* ~46% Less Cringe
* The Cooler Daniel
* Fauux Lurks

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{ THE LORE }

Here, I've decided to gather information on various silly aspects of the NeoCities "Lore" the community has built up over the years. There's no particular order and I am open to suggestions for more entries. Browse at your leisure:

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{ ABOUT NEOCITIES & GEOCITIES }

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{ WALL OF BUTTONS }

~^\_ The Krypt BBS _/^~

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Connect through Telnet-compatible CLI via bbs.kry.pt:23 !

Alternatively, click the link below to use a browser-based client (a bit unstable, but gets the job done; mobile NOT recommended, use a Telnet app).

NOTE: This is a test BBS. Once I familiarize myself with the Synchronet software, I'll be removing the FTP and email functions (for now) and will refresh the server.

~^\_ The Krypt BBS _/^~

TODO: add FAQ.

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KryptOS was a CSS design scheme I strove for in the old versions of my site. As you can tell, I still enjoy the "alternative OS" aesthetic, but I got bored constantly using the same vaporwave colors and styles and just settled for a 2-bit look.

Versions 1 & 2 are just the first [cringy] versions of the Krypt, from when I was first learning HTML. It seemed logical to put them here with the other iterations. Boy, what a pain it was to try to keep my original garbo code intact while trying to get the pages to work again.

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(;_;)/^-{ Manly tears were shed. }-^\(;_;)

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Decided to make an inconvenient list of media that made me sad. Me, a stereotypical manly-man composed of salt and spite and out of touch with his emotions, breaking down into a blubbering mess and usually contemplating existence for a few days afterwards.

In no particular order (1 Total Entry):

* [ MAL Link ] * [ Amazon EN Link ] *

A coming-of-age manga that's all sorts of raw and fucked up. Rape, child abuse, domestic abuse, and a whole lotta utterly garbo humans. Will simultaneously make you feel like offing yourself and getting your shit together. I felt truly disgusted with myself and everyone around me for days after reading. Some people thought the climax was a bit much, but I think it's great. Well, not great, shit was wack yo, but I feel it was the perfect shitty cherry on top to a story about the unluckiest dude in existence. 09/10 masterpiece of art and storytelling.

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罪に罪を重ねてだけだよ。

To Do List:

Last updated: 17OCT21

Claw my way out of depression once again
Get a new apartment
Begin learning assembly
Write article about journeys into spiritual junk
Finish polishing up bbs.kry.pt
Start drafting new years resolutions
Start looking for christmas presents
Set up IRC server (irc.kry.pt?)
Figure out what to do with de.kry.pt
Set up Minecraft server (mc.kry.pt)
Start learning Python
Organize projects folder
Gather "lore" on Neocities (ESPECIALLY outside of the discords)
Draft dream atelier plans
Finish last two routes in FE3H
Cope with existence as I turn 27
Fix resume
Add more content to get:sad and make get:glad
Pin down project goal for "Kryptonomicon"
Pin down project goal for "Falstalgia"
Start writing again
Make fancy logo for new Krypt
Begin microblog